Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Weight Watchers Wednesday

Today is my weigh-in day. Considering the week we had, I don't think I did too badly. I didn't lose any weight, but I didn't gain any either. With John going into the hospital for his transplant, and then being sent home because of a little thing on his neck, we were stressed big time!

8/05/09 starting weight 220 (YIKES!!!!)
8/12/09 week one 217
8/19/09 week two 217

I am a stress eater. And I go for comfort and junk food when I'm stressed or angry. I noticed the anger eating when my kids were young. Whenever I was mad at them, I'd head right for the fridge. The same can be said for stress. And I was stressed like I haven't been in several years! Mashed potatoes, crackers and cheese, ice cream, crunchy snacks. I love them all. In the entire week, I probably ate maybe 15 real meals.

I have to say the only time I was stressed and couldn't eat was in December 2004, when I found out my husband was having an affair with a woman from his office. He stayed in my home for about 8 weeks after I found out. If he wasn't at home, I couldn't eat, period. I was afraid if I tried to eat, I'd throw up. So, I existed on green tea, coffee and water. I forced myself to eat dinner every night because my family would realize I wasn't eating. In those 8 weeks, I lost 20 lbs. Once he moved out, I eventually got my appetite back and made up for lost time. I gained back the weight and then some.

OK, enough of that! I'm not going to beat myself up for my poor food choices this past week. I stayed the same weight. I wasn't moving as much as I normally would. You sit a lot when you're spending time with someone in the hospital and when you do move, you move slowly!

I have an interesting book here that I read a year or so ago, written by a woman named Susan Blech. It's called Confessions of a Carb Queen. It's the story of her journey to fitness and this lady tells it like it is! Here's the link to her website: Confessions of a Carb Queen . She also has a blog on Blogger but she hasn't written anything since the New Year: Confessions Of A Carb Queen .

Things I've learned this week:

~ I must move if I want to lose weight.

~ I really shouldn't go to the grocery store when I'm hungry.

~ I cannot, under any circumstances have Cheetohs in the house. There's no way I can ration them!

~ When I feel the urge to chow down, I must call my sponsor (thanks Alix!!)

~ John and I are terrible enablers to each other!

~ I have to get used to tracking what goes in my mouth on a regular basis. The past week, I didn't track my food. Maybe keep a little notebook in my purse and write stuff down as I eat it. Then enter it on the food tracker online.

OK, hugs to me and I'll do better this week!


Unknown said...

Hey, sticking to the same weight isn't back. I think that even if you are doing right and eating properly your weight does stabilize. I bet you'll be better next week! Go Joanie!

Joanne said...

What an awesome post - Joanie I am so much like you with the stress eating etc etc. I piled on the pounds when my first husband was sick - I ate because I was lonely and sad. I have zero reason to be the size I am now - except I am. I will head over to your suggestion. I am a carboholic and sometimes I can't get enough - SUCKS. oh dear this is your blog - I am so proud of you for NOT gaining and just looking forward.

Boozy Tooth said...

I got back from NY and was happy not to have gained any weight - so I totally understand your joy getting through a week of temptation!

Again, your "What I learned this week" bullets were right on the money. I love that feature of Weight Watcher Wednesday!

Just one thought I want you to contemplate... it is possible to break destructive cycles instead of justify them. Think about that when you are tempted to eat out of frustration, boredom, anger, sadness, stress, etc. Go out for a brisk walk instead. You'll feel better and the urge will pass.

I'm really proud of you Joanie! You are taking on a difficult challenge during already difficult times. I bow to you!

Keep up the awesome work.

Love ya!

Unknown said...

Good advice Alix!

Joanie: Your Cheetoh weakness is mine with any junkfood. I just can't have it in the house. I'm incapable of just 1 or 2. I eat, and eat, and eat.

That Janie Girl said...


I love Cheetos, just saying. And if I have them in the house, it's never for very long, cause I go to the bottom of the bag in no time flat.

John is looking GOOD!


Daria said...

Hugs to you ... next week will be better.

linlah said...

Potato chips are my weakness - I can't have them in the house. Good for you in continuing to make the commitment.

The Retired One said...

I am proud of you for not stressing so much during all that you are going through with John..staying the same is it may come off better next week...that used to happen with me all the time when I used to be on WW...plateau one week and then do good again the following week.
you are learning too..and that is a victory!

bernthis said...

I went to high school with Susan Blech. Small world huh?

Sharon Rose said...

Joanie, Congratulations on maintaining this week! You did well!
With the stresses that are surrounding you right now, I think it speaks volumes that you are doing this diet plan right now!
Way to take care of YOU!
Congratulations and big HUGS!

Laura said...

We're all so proud of Joanie. You're on an amazing journey that will leave you with even more energy that you have now =) Looking forward to hearing about your progress sweetie!

unmitigated me said...

Also, under stress, your whole body chemistry changes. It goes into conservation mode! So you did great!

Maureen@IslandRoar said...

Good for you for not beating yourself up! You didn't gain and that's what counts.
Yes, Never go shopping when hungry. I do find writing down what I eat helps. Sounds like you are figuring out a lot of stuff about yourself. That's half the battle.

Nina said...

One day at a time or should I say one calorie at a time... with the stresses you've been under, sometimes staying the same is almost as good as loosing. We all hit plateaus'. Keep drinking the water, keep the food diary etc... I'll keep sending good thoughts and healing prayers in your direction for you and your husband. Good Luck and Blessings to you and yours. Love and Light, Nina P.

Susan Blech said...

Hi all!

This is Susan Blech, author of Confessions of a Carb Queen! I'm glad that you enjoyed my book! As you can imagine, it wasn't easy to write. However, knowing that people have been inspired by my story is the reason why I decided to "bare it all!"

Keep positive and live the life of your dreams!!

Warmly, Susan

Hit 40 said...

Congrats! 3 pounds down. Great work!!